Tantric Fitness

Posted on April 24, 2023

Back in the summer of 2019, I was in Toronto filming a sex scene for a big studio when I had a small injury in my hole. Nothing traumatic happened, there had just been a long time between me warming up and lubing my ass and when we actually shot the scene. My hole wasn't ready anymore by the time we started and when my scene partner entered me, I felt some discomfort. I decided to continue and we completed the shoot. Afterwards I checked myself out and sure enough, there was a tiny tear in the lining of my anus (the outer 1.5 inches towards the opening of the hole). I had experienced this a few times over the years when bottoming and it was always no big deal, felt small and stingy like a paper cut and healed up on its own within a week. Well this time felt exactly the same, but it just wouldn't heal quite right. The skin would gradually heal, but not be strong enough to withstand even the most gentle fucking with small to medium cocks. I researched what I was experiencing and realized it was a fissure. I had of course heard of fissures before, but I actually thought (because of the dramatic name) that a fissure was a HOLE that had been punctured through the lining of the rectum (deeper inside), due to really rough fucking, hand or toy play. I quickly learned that these small fissures can happen in a location that your body simply cannot heal on its own. This was definitely my situation. I'm pretty determined when it comes to healing things as naturally as possible and I tried ALL of the natural remedies. I tried for over two years and unfortunately none of them worked. So earlier this year I decided to have the small surgery to repair it. I am really happy that I did because it was successful (as most are) and after a period of healing, I was ready to get fucked again. The healing process involved gradually stretching the muscles in my hole with my fingers and increasingly larger butt plugs and dildos. I started super small! It all felt so good though, and to be penetrated again was heaven. I took my time to make sure I was maximizing my chances for epic fucking again and by the beginning of summer I was ready to go. Around that time I met up with @dorianshawxxx for a playdate. We just had sex together and didn't film. During our time I learned that he had also recently had the surgery and was just starting to get fucked again. He wanted to be open about his experience with me and that's what inspires this scene and the chat at the beginning. We want to show that when men are vulnerable with each other, there is an openness and softness of heart that occurs that can really break walls down.This is a flip flop scene. I top Dorian with my hands and my cock and he tops my ass beautifully with his mouth and hands. Topping and bottoming doesn't always mean someone got fucked with a cock. We can also top with our hands, mouths, toys, words, body language and even energy. I hope you enjoy our mutual hole opening session as we make love with each other while engaging in our self care healing for our new holes PS: I decided to wait to post this until I had 6 months of successful bottoming under my belt before talking about it. My hole looks and feels better than before and now that I'm sure the procedure worked, I'm happy to share information on the clinic in NY that took such good careof me. Feel free to DM me for their information.